Random Billie Facts

So I've been thinking about things to blog about and it's actually harder to pick a topic than I imagined.  This time, I'm going to mimic the 25 Things About Me thing that was going around Facebook a while back.

1. I can't throw up solids.  I had surgery when I was a junior at OU and haven't thrown up anything beyond stomach acid since then (which really sucked when I got food poisoning after dining in an Italian restaurant in Mexico).
2. I use the word "republican" as an insult, even though I don't' really mean it.
3. Sometimes I wish I had a penis so I could do cool stuff with it (put it in random places, spell words with pee, etc...).
4. I honestly disagree with vegetarians.  I believe meat was created to be enjoyed deliciously.  If I could convert them all, I would.
5. I experimented with drugs in college and don't regret any of it (it came in handy during child birth when I needed to keep reminding myself I was numb b/c of drugs - been there, done that before!).  I do worry that Olivia will do the same stuff and that she won't be as lucky to not get hurt as I was.
6. I don't really want to have boy children.  I will love them when/if I have them, but I find them more annoying than girls because they tend to be more physical and I'm also unsure about changing their diapers b/c they can aim where they pee (which is ironic that I dislike that feature in this situation - see #3).
7. I truly hate talking on the phone (unless it's wine night - woot woot!).  I would much rather be texted, emailed, or smoke signalled than have to answer my friggin phone (which is probably why it's always on silent).
8. I'm still bitter about high school.  People were mean for no damn reason and I'm ashamed (kinda) to say that I not only am still pissy about it, but I also take joy in their misery (not everyone's misery, just the mean people - karma's a bitch!).  Obviously, this is something I need to work on....
9. I am happy about 95% of the time.  I used to have anxiety, but that hasn't been present in my life for quite some time (thanks Prozac!!!).  I think I may have finally learned to let go of what I can't control (except for approximately 5% of the time).
10. I'm now paranoid that not only will my anxiety reappear, but I will now be UNhappy 95% of the time b/c I jinxed myself by writing #9.
11. I cuss in front of Olivia.  I have no plans of stopping.  I like cussing because it allows me to express myself with words.  I've discovered that as long as I say "bad word" after I cuss, she doesn't repeat the cuss word, only "bad word."  Success.
12. I never ever pictured myself with a man living happily ever after.  Even when I was younger, I imagined myself as a successful single mother living in a Seinfeld-esque world.  I'm disappointed to know that that world doesn't exist, but I'm happily surprised to now think that I will live happily ever after with a really good guy.
13. I am considering shaving my feet.  
14. I talk too much.  Not the talk too much kind where you just talk to fill silences, I tell too much about myself.  I do this, in part, because I feel as though confession is good for the soul and I'd much rather be the bearer of too much information than to have someone find out through other means.  
15. I love to be shocking.  From grabbing my crotch and thrusting at my mom to telling too much about my personal life, I get a thrill from other people's reactions.
16. I still crave attention.  I thought I would have outgrown this by now, but #s 14 and 15 prove that it's not the case.
17. I cannot stand mean people.  I know that I'm not often politically correct (if you think this blog is bad, you should know me in person), but I cannot stand it when people are mean to other people just to be mean.  I dated a guy that did this constantly and eventually, I was mean to him and ditched his ass.  Boo-ya.
18. If I could have my dream job, I would just write about random things and make money doing it.
19. I suck at being financially healthy.  I don't know how I do it, but I can't save a damn dime!  I've spreadsheeted my budget, I've opened different accounts with other companies that are harder for me to get to, I've hidden cash from myself.  Nothing works.  I think it's genetic (my entire family has the same problem).  I really wish someone else would handle my money for me.
20. I'm not sure I'll move out of Athens.  This is a confession for me because in the past, I always saw that way of thinking to symbolize failure.  My perception is changing on that, however, and I'm now seeing it as a sign of contentment with my current life.
21. Sometimes I look at my myspace profile and it makes me cry with happiness that my life has been so awesome.
22. The jobs that I have loved the most are the ones that stressed me out the most.  I love working under pressure and feeling like what I do is actually important.  If I could pick, however, I wouldn't work, I'd travel and just live life.
23. Sometimes I get bummed by thinking that our lives are filled with things we "have to do."  To think of spending the majority of my life working at some job (even if I like it) instead of seeing the world and experiencing everything there is to experience is depressing, so I try not to think about that too much.
24. I didn't think I'd love Olivia as much as I loved Jake (not kidding).  
25. I have regular delusions of grandeur and I think that's what keeps me sane.